and surprisingly it hurt...

I couldn't spect this, I would have never thought this ws gonna hurt this way...why does it hurt this way??maybe coz I know this was happening or because it was the first time or because I thought u were stronger or because I wanted it to be perfect,...But it hurt a lot eventhough I wasn't crying and I was not gonna do it. Despite the fact that you never wanted to talk about that...it hurt. I just wanted to protect myself though i didn't want to hurt you I don't even know if I did but I don't regret it if it hurts you I don't care I just told u how I felt, I didn't want you to be that weak and I didn't want you to control the situation u said no and tht's what's gonna be. Not now not in 3 weeks time no in 2 months no when u feel better, a relationship is about 2 ppl not just u, "I want to do thing properly and if I cannot do it properly I'd rather do it" fine I'm gonna do things properly too and you'r gonna regret it for sure I do want u to regret what you did the mistake u made this time cannot be forgiven sorry but no.
I cannot belive you just give up so easily without even think "but it's just this situation don't worry when I came through it..." u just said no then I'm saying no too, u'r choice ur concecuences.
Now we are just friends.