Together we'll be the greatest team there's ever been

But they weren't,Elphaba ended alone and I ask myself why, she was the brightest,the best,the most curious, the most willing to be loved. I just can't helped loving her for me she was beautiful and wise. She had a unlimited curiosity, she was strong and how come a stupid girl like Dorothy finished her off????? She always believed in equality she fought for the Animals for the ppl's right for everybody's right. She might looked cold but she was warm inside.She suffered for the Animals and for Fiyero's family. Tht regret tht made her start a jorney to find forgiveness, that bitter soul tht uncertain story about fiyero's death,tht loved tht killed her.
I've never feel so like a character in my life and I've read loads of books and loved a huge lot of them, but she's the one.
She made me feel like I wanted to be a wicked witch, she's just the best. She was the strongest person I've ever read of, she's totally alive.
She came through being green,tht her dad loved her sister the best and ignored her completely,being fooled,being insulted, the rumours they spread against her, ppl's incompetence and ignorance...and she went on with all tht on her shoulders.
I want to be like her, I want to be strong, I want to try tht hard for being independent, for choosing my way.Everytime I remember the book I feel her strenth and I don't care what ppl say, they'll never understand the way I do, they'll never know as much as I do about books. I analize them, I suffer when there's smone written suffering, I'm proud of the characters when they archieve things, I became the main character.For me it's a necessity I live through them I live other realities, other lifes, I grow taller, older o younger and more naive. I just need it,it's my drug.I'm addicted to reading books and I'm addicted to Elphaba.
I want to make a play about the book, the full book.A competent play with everything tht's in the book and I want to play Elphaba, show the other how impotent she felt when Glinda gave dorothy the shoes she wanted so hard, how broken she felt when she realised fiyero wasn't hidden behing inside the scarecrow,...They must see it it's so obvious but they can't see it they can't feel it. How come???? They need to understand tht it's soooo important they do.But they won't they are so into their reality they can't see the art they can't feel it,if I write a book as I will noone will feel it but I will and I hope a freak like me will too.Tht will make it worth the efford.
Elphie thanks a lot.

Fear

Fear is when u feel like smthing may hurt u and u'r waiting for it to come but u can't see it coming yet. U can feel it by urself or coz someone make u feel like.
I was happy I wasn't worring about tht but now u mention it I feel like a doll. What if I'm wrong what if it hurt what if... U know what u'r making me feel?? I know u mean no harm but u'r killing me. At this moment I feel really insecure my life is crashing into pieces but I can feel safe in sm places I can think about things tht make me feel safe but u'r ruining it. U'r telling me not to worry but how can't I stop doing it when u are telling me tht.
I don't want to be like yesterday, I want to feel free and a little careless feeling tht I can overcome tht but u'r making me feel like I should go back to my cave and stay there safe but I don't want to be safe anymore, can't u see tht I want to risk so I'll get smthing in return,please don't feed my fears don't.
U say u see, u think. Don't do it. It makes me start thinking and tht may make me go backwards and tht's really bad for me.
Why is everybody telling me how wrong it can be what the hell are u doing?U'r making me feel insecure and I don't need tht at the moment so stop it.